7 September 2016

Worst Period of her life

Worst Period of Her Life - Action Aid - Poster - women in need - periods - sanitary products - help - young women
Image from Action Aid.

Being a girl can be hard especially when you're young on the cusp of being a woman. Trying to navigate yourself thru a mix of hormones, your body changing and finding out who you are, it really is a stressful time! Not to mention PERIODS, whether you were anxious for them to start. terrified at the thought of them, totally unaware of periods at all or even if you were fully prepared and aware, it can still a bit of an unsettling, embarrassing and scary time when you first notice some marks in your knickers. 

While in a shopping centre toilet a week or so ago, I noticed a poster from action aid. Which was all about donating money for sanitary products to girls in war torn, impoverished and third world countries. 

I immediately remembered my first period and how I'd known about them and understood what would happen when they did start. I still started crying sat on the toilet calling for my mum to come upstairs. I was 11 years old at the time and didn't feel ready to deal with it. I was still carefree playing make believe and acting like a child not wanting to worry about leaks and stomach pains.

Even though I found the whole thing really annoying and embarrassing I could talk to my mum and get advice on how to deal with it. Some girls aren't so lucky. Imagine having to cope with all the stresses of starting your period on your own with no family, no clean clothes and no sanitary products. I wouldn't have dreamt of even going to the shops to buy pads, when I was young. The thought people knowing you were on your period was soooo cringey and I would send my mum to stock up instead. These young girls don't even have the luxury of being able to purchase them.

Worst Period of Her Life - Action Aid - Poster - women in need - periods - sanitary products - help - young women
Image from http://www.want2donate.org/

I was prepared and was still scared yet some of the young ladies don't have a clue what is happening to them. With no one to turn to, explain that its natural or products to help them feel clean and embarrassment free. I can't even fathom how those girls must feel. The thought of the poster and the girls stuck with me even now days later. ActionAid the charity mentioned in the poster. Really do some amazing work with people suffering all over the world and this is just one of the many campaigns they run. If you would like to help by donating or to find out more about the work the charity does check out their website here Action Aid.

Think back to when you were young, how would you have coped? What if it was your child or younger sister? It's gut wrenching to see young women in such heart breaking circumstances. If we could make the situation a little  easier for them, how amazing would that be! Let's give these girls one less thing to worry about.

Lots of love, 
Laura x

1 September 2016

Why I took a break from blogging

Wow it feels like such a long time since I have posted a new blogpost. It's been over a month since my last post. Which is the longest break I've had from blogging in a long time. I thought it was only fair I fill you in on why I haven't been blogging. 

I have touched upon my issues with my mental health before yet have felt they had been under control, until a few months ago.

I suddenly realised I wasn't coping again and had let things like my anxiety take a hold of me. So I decided to take a step back from blogging for a while and use that extra time to look after myself. 

Anxiety is a constant cycle and once you let it get out of hand, it is so hard to break. I'll feel anxious so I won't go out, so then I'll feel isolated and guilty about letting people down. Which leads me to feel depressed and I'll worry about everything. This in turn makes me feel even more anxious. 

I don't really know at what age I started to suffer with mental health problems but it was first addressed when I was roughly 15. I have had lots of different types of therapy and counselling over the years since then.

I haven't ever coped well with stress or change they are some of my main triggers. After getting help with my underlying issues and stopping all of my old unhealthy coping mechanisms, I was left feeling overly anxious. 

From about the age of 20 I was crippled with anxiety to the point I didn't leave the house. I had lost a tremendous amount of weight due to the constant worrying and developed a unhealthy relationship with food. Whenever I'd have an anxiety attack I felt that I was going to be sick or go to the toilet. I hated feeling full and I wouldn't want to eat before going out or seeing people, in case I needed the dreaded panic poo! Lol 

My mum and fiancĂ© Dave saw how ill I was and literally dragged me to the doctors. I was put on medication and had CBT. which helped me get out and about slightly more. After being referred to lots of different doctors and trying lots of different combinations of tablets and therapies. I was so much better than I was. I could eat in front of people and was managing to go out with my friends again,even managing to attend a few events with Dave. Even though I was a lot better I still battled with my anxiety on and off with it coming in waves. 

Yet things changed, all got on top of me again a couple of months ago. my panic attacks were happening more and more frequently,which made my circle of places I felt safe get smaller. I was getting down about having to miss out on opportunities because of my anxiety. Then I ended up having a massive panic attack at home for no reason and I thought enough was enough, I clearly wasn't coping anymore. so I decided I would go back to the doctors and take a break from blogging to focus on getting back on track. The doctors have changed up my tablets and I'm now finding things a bit easier since the tablets have kicked in. I'm now in a much better place for fighting my anxiety even though it's still an ongoing problem, it is improving. I'm so lucky to have such an amazing group of friends and family around me who have been with me every step of the way. 

I hope this helped you understand why I haven't been as active on here and on social media. If you're suffering with anxiety or any other mental health problem please do go seek help. You're not on your own and you don't have to suffer in silence. Thanks for all your emails and tweets etc asking me if I'm ok! Your support means the world to me. Although I'm not anxiety free and still struggle to get out on my own I'm getting there! 

If you'd like to see more posts about my anxiety, living with a mental illness or if you have any questions please let me know!  Or if you just need someone to talk too I'm always here.

Lots of love, 
Laura x

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